Those eyes

......Did i disappoint you
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without......

Those that are close to me know that I'm a big Johnny Cash fan, and really I'm not only a fan cause of the songs, or the meanings behind them. Have you ever stopped and looked at one of his pictures? Have you ever noticed how much you can see in just one facial expression? How many things has he been through?, how much has he faced?, how much.....

Too much and nothing at the same time...

I wonder if people ever look at me the same way, I wonder what people really see or think when they look at me, I wonder if they even notice.....I just wonder if the scars are there to be seen, if there's any story behind a facet or a joke or on a flashback....

Flashbacks....

They happen almost all the moments of my day, on my way to work, on my way to a class, overlooking a lesson plan or just an English expression, flashbacks are the worst part of bad experiences, cause they never leave you alone, they happen inconsciously out of the blue, on big or small things, during conversations, over a glass of water, on a song you listen, on a TV ad you see, cause we're just ants in this big'ol universe.

Isn't it weird when you think you're good for nothing and people look up to you for help or advices?

Someone told me today that really needed to talk, and the first person on her mind was me, cause I was the only person who would understand what was going on, and that would give the best advices for each isolated situation. Again I wonder....

I wonder if I am indeed this model or good advisor if you will, again I wonder why people come to me asking for advices and stuff.....tell me please what do you see that gives you the idea that I am the right person to know your story.

I guess having a long and complex life story is enough?

Can't give an answer to that...